It's hard to look without my eyes
the crusty lids are sealed shut with tainted memories
and inside they burn
I scream in pain, but still they blur
clouding my mind with untruths and
wishful thinking
Why aren't you attached to your shadow?
I know you're waiting for me
waiting for me to find you and take you in my arms
waiting for this to all be over
but I can't see you and it scares me
there are others, drifting in and out
but I don't recognize them
I don't recognize you
Do me a favour, will you?
Just stay in one place and don't move
the bottom of the escalator - yes, that's good
don't move
once my eyes clear
I'll come to you
I'll come to you
Sometimes I can hear you, a small voice
far away
I hear it in the wind, but it's caught in the branches
it’s fading and I have to turn my ear just so
it hurts my neck to angle like that
you blow away and I can't stop you
My stomach hurts
I can't find you
you're still missing, and I don't know what to do
but what if I wait at the bottom of the escalator?
what if I wait for you to come
back
to me?
I won't move
I won't move
© 2022 Shirley Hay